Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did , I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery, I will not break the way you did you fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far. Because of you I never stay too far from the sidewalk, because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt, because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me because of you, I am afraid. I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out, I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes. I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh every day of my life. My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with. I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep, I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me, you never thought of anyone else. You just saw your pain and now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.